Are you Giving or Taking?

a chapter from my book, “The Call of Essence”

Really, take a moment and feel. Be really honest. Radically honest .... It also concerns yourself. How do You treat yourself? Your body? Your mind?

Is there love and gracefulness in your care?

Simple question - do you compare the price tag and quality of the stuff you put in, with the stuff you hang around yourself, to make the false self more worthy of love? 

Now please expand on it. It can also be that you did prefer self-suffocation, the idea of the correct information, and a relentless search for safety. Safety has a really heavy price tag. I believe you already mastered that knowledge. All those lifetimes must have taught it. 

Also, do not drown in emotions, especially those trying to figure out the essential unworthiness. Aah, that’s a really tough one. 

So play if you want, but do it consciously in a way that won't harm you.
Forgetfulness of “the who that made a choice” and “the how you started that game” influences others. Who actually are all the same one. 

You see, it’s completely insane to keep on praying or hoping that part will change.

Maybe you can shift your awareness and see who's there.
All the world's psychiatry and psychotherapy has proven it repeatedly. Endless. Just more details over time. 

How you do anything is how you do everything ...
Read again—one line up. 

Only then, when you have really started taking loving care of the vast abundance you consider yourself, can you do the same with others. 
Only then. It all starts within, from you. Nowhere else to look. 

You can start with a question - am I giving myself enough time and space, so I can allow myself just to be? 
Only then, when I’ve filled myself with my SELF, do I function as an endless fountain of love. Then and only then do I have some real value to share, right from my heart, the overflow of my heart. 

Remember: How you do anything is how you do everything. Is there something you can change in that giving/taking balance? 

Like right now. Not yesterday, not tomorrow. Now. Start from the most mundane and simple things ... 

Make a list. 

I would suggest writing a question - what did I come here to do, on earth, in human form? 

No answer is needed. It will come. It will pop up when you least expect it. Trust. 

Even if you already have that answer. Everything changes; it deepens. Questions always lead us to even more profound answers. 

“Share your love” was the one I’ve been getting over time. “How,” I asked. “Is there an even better way than the one I’m currently on?” 

“Please, write”, came an answer. “Write, share your love through words”. 

“What,” I asked. 

“Just write” was the answer. “I don’t know how, I’m not educated on that. “ 

“Well, I do”, said my heart. “You just pick up the pen and write.” “If you can’t, then just allow you to die.” 

“Self, the central sun, shines. Just allow the Self to shine. That’s your only serious task, everything else follows, and all your little worries will be resolved. “ 
“By the sun, your essence ... Who else?” “So stop begging. You are not a beggar. “ 

“When You need something, really need it, then ask. And ask as if you already have it because you do. Asking with gratitude in it. That’s the practice. You came here to share what You already are. So please, do it. You have all the freedom to make it happen.” 

There’s a beautiful thought from OSHO: It’s called the Potterer and the Clay. 

Identify with outside things and define yourself in relationship to them and you are lifted up and dragged down, exalted and humiliated by all the myriad permutations of thought, emotion and experience. Why keep this drama going? Why seek stability and peace through that which is neither stable nor peaceful? 
You are the one who decides what your life will be. You breathe life into every relationship and every circumstance which comes your way. Lest you gave it life, breath, meaning, purpose, it would have none. You are not just the bowl or the cup, but the potter who turns it and shapes it.You are not just the clay, but the one who breathes life into it. 

There is a great love in me towards the masters that have walked the earth. I love to feel and read about their lives. Their ways. 
All of them have different paths. Not a single one repeating itself. And yet again, wisdom they have left behind, ageless. Pointing to one and the same. 
I truly believe that our personal experience and our very own SELF is the only teacher to follow. 

Yet I have to admit, that this requires real self mastery to reach the point where your discernment evolves to the level of accuracy required for following only your own path. 

That is why it is inevitable on earlier stages to walk with the Great Masters, who managed to reach the final stages on the Path of Truth. They have paved us beautiful paths to discover and realign ourselves on our personal journeys. We can stand on their shoulders.Only when we are truly ready to take a leap, let go and fall into our personal manifestation of highest Grace. 

One of my great loves is Francesco Assisi. Not the religious part of him, that was created afterwards he had left the body. That’s not where I’m aiming. 
His life. His wisdom. What he pointed towards. 

If you want your dream to be
Take your time, go slowly
Do few things, but do them well
Heartfelt work grows purely

If you want to live life free
Take your time, go slowly
Do few things, but do them well
Heartfelt work grows purely 

Day by day, stone by stone,
Build your secret slowly
Day by day, you’ll grow too
You’ll know heaven’s glory 

If you want your dream to be
Take your time, go slowly
Small beginnings, greater ends
Heartfelt work grows purely 

If you want to live life free
Take your time, go slowly
Do few things, but do them well
Heartfelt joys are holy 

If you want to live life free
Take your time, go slowly
Do few things, but do them well
Heartfelt joys are holy. 

- Francesco Assisi